Welcome to Love Living Love

So far, this blog has been an open dialogue between myself and my partner Sharon. I have left a few poems that we have written to each other over the last couple of months, and hidden the rest!

Over the coming year this blog will be a place to document our journey as we leave the lives we have built for ourselves, me in England and Sharon in Holland, to embark on creating a life experience together ... somewhere ...

We have no idea why we are going apart from our dedication to experiencing life to the fullest. So watch this space and join us along the way. We will inevitably journey into both shadows and light in some form or another. Sounds like I am going to perform magic! haha ... the only magic that might take place is seeing what can happen when space is created to really live truth in life and open up the expansion that it can bring.

Over the couple of months we have both been clearing stuff out, energetically and physically. I would like to thank the support of our Friends who have witnessed a selling frenzy on Facebook along with house parties and targeted texting, as we have been flogging our gear. It's good to see things get a new life somewhere else. The charity shops have also been doing really well ... and there's still some more to come as bedrooms, bookshelves and garages get sorted out.

I will be posting in the near future about some of these processes that have taken place. The experience of the external clearing process and the effects I have been noticing on my internal self. It has been an interesting time to witness so far... infact this year has been incredible so far so I also look forward to sharing some of my insights on that too.

So, as this is just a welcome, I am keeping it short, but I would like to say that I am looking forward to journalling this next part of life, and maybe along the way there may be some gems of wisdom the readers may find useful. 

Have fun whatever you may be up to 

Love Living Love

Hazel xx

A few words ...

This is a message I posted on Facebook...

As I am getting ready to leave for Holland I am also getting ready for the next adventure in my life. It involves really saying 'yes' completely to my life.

'Eternal life force stems from love, it is a golden seed in the soul of each being. To truly love ourselves fully, feel our light and shine out to the world enables expansion, awareness and an incredible energy that can radiate to others.' H.E.

YES    

Over the last 10 years of delving into my inner landscapes, I have realised that so many of the times I have felt a struggle or inner conflict is because the lack of love I have had for myself. As I have learnt, and still learning, to fully love myself, I have noticed how life has been changing for the better, and how much calmer inside I now feel. This year has now opened me up to really being able to give and receive love in my life and that has also come in the form of partnership. A totally unexpected dive into a conscious partnership with someone who so closely mirrors me, helps show me my shadows and my light.

And so, this is partly what this journey is about for me. How I can live in truth to my self, feeling my shine, my authentic creative expression in whatever form that takes and how I can also be in partnership and maintain my sense of self. The blog 'Love Living Love' has been in the making for 9 months already, with my partner, and I am going to launch it soon. It will be the place where I intend to document our journey and begin to share the learnings I have been experiencing over the last 10 years.

For now ... here is the logo/banner I have been playing with (at top). These birds were ones that flew above our heads in Poole Harbour. Flight is a great symbol, as I now feel my new wings growing in strength and getting ready to launch off the cliff into the unknown flight of what is to come. I hope you will join us on the journey, and I will let you know when the blog is launched.

Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive of my creative endeavors over the last 10 years here in England. I look forward to seeing what comes as we continue in the beautiful flow of life.

Lots of love

Hx

YES

Wings of Solace

I thought I would share this with you. Finding a way through whatever is happening at the moment, darkness fading and light feeling stronger. I begin to see my gold shimmering softly once again.
Here is a journey I went into today.


Wings of Solace

As the Solace drips away
And peace seems lost in the darkness
Fear seems so powerful
And the heart, kept small,
Is gasping to breathe once again into fullness.
Where did all the signposts go?
As everything I have built seems to stand in fog
Where is my truth?
As my ego dies
I let my identity die too
Who is this 'I' I have created?
A monster of my own being?
A result of all my experiences
Imprinted into the network of my body.
Seeing where this 'I' has come from
and knowing that not all of her is me.
Am I ready to let go even more?
Am I ready to say goodbye to the comfort of misguidance?
I have missed me
All my life.
And now as the layers get deeper and deeper
And I witness their unfolding,
Fear tries to keep me blanketed in wings of solace.
But where is my heart?
How do I know where my heart is when I am still in the game, 
In the foggy programming of yesterdays schedule.
Held in the fiery cradle
The blanket burns away
Scolding the awakening
Tempting resistance
Feeling into the fire
Feeling the burning
Broken embers falling
The Phoenix rises.
Fire feeling the raw heart
Rising warmth
Igniting the gold flow
Through every vein
Reconnecting the pure golden energy
So I can 'live' again
My old, heavy broken wings fall into the abyss. 
I begin to see and feel how heavy they have been hanging on my back,
The dark shadow that I mistook for being part of my self.
They carried me far.
I honor them with gratitude in my goodbye.
It is now time to fly high
High
With my golden wings.
With one final glance below into Hades
To see the old wings, resting in peace.
My voice carries me into the light
I can say goodbye
I can
I can fly into my power
Into the unknown space
As the golden honey rush flows back 
Into my heart
I see the sun shining 
Energising my soul. 
My true soul
The one that was always here.
So much love
Breathing and relaxing 
Into the space of a new journey, 
A beginning
Simply being.

Today's Apples

I love you like there is no tomorrow
I love you like all my dreams came true
I love you like the song that sings itself
From the bottom of my heart
And I love you because you can see right through
All the layers that I hide behind
The ones from times gone by
The layers that are not part of us
The ones to which we say goodbye.
I love you like you are the world
And you mean the world to me
I love you with all the sweetness of my heart
You are my Apple Tree.

My Rainbow King

My Rainbow King

You are the light that shines right through

To all the darkest spaces within my soul

Holding out your hand to help find the truth

To make only love our ultimate goal

Through a life time deep of black and white

I see your colours shining so brightly above

Clearing the lenses and birthing new sight

I will join you my King as we embrace love

Through all the colours I once never felt

I feel them emerging through my skin

Reconnecting every cell, a kiss of bliss, I melt

Into your arms, I can trust, I feel you within

All these colours I had once never seen 

Are now right here as I dance and sing

Oh my love, my love I'm your Rainbow Queen

And you are my Rainbow King

Ik hou zoveel van jou Sharon

Forever yours

Rainbow Warrior

Hazel

xxxx

I know my Goal..

My dearest Hazel

I want to love you

Not for the love itself
Not for me to be happy
Not to feel the heart

I want to love you

To see you smile

I want to love you

To see you melt into time

I want you to flower, to bloom
into your own happiness

And all I want from love
is to witness this phenomenon

Of you being truly you
yourself
your Self

The highest you
The Soul
Mother earth

I am
there for you

My deepest and greatest
love

I love you
is my mantra

I love you
is my goal

You loving life
Is what I cherish

You living love
Is what I hold

I am there
my love

With all my love
I am there

For you..

Skype painting..

Painting our faces for each other online skyping the night away.. Loved it my love!! So much fun!! Love ya!

I love this picture of you

I feel like we are adventurers together - I love it :-D